Nothing to Lose

Contemplating why life (and me) try'n to derail, won't let me prevail, see
disruptively tripping balls keep me banging into walls
PLOING PLOP
swimmin' in yer cup till every drop dried up
letting it all fall away
OH NO
"you can stay, you can stay!''

Trying to blend out but the background keeps mimicking me
- lousy karma karma chamaeleoidae - 

I know I forgot, but I don't know what it is I forgot
trying to inhabit the infinite plot
tasting my off-ish inclinations
blurting spells and incantations
having a dance-off with space
dunno how to ignore or what to chase

(easy does it dear, have no fear, the truth must be in here) 

What else must I slay, and chissle away
feigned and unexplained
pretend to have my bearings
gained
Eeny, meeny, miny, moe
I have no clue 
and I told me so 



I.A.m